Finally，Iost you in my life...
18th Jan 08, I received a bad news that you met an accident and in coma.My brain had been blank. But I strongly believe U wills awake. You are a cheerful person, u will struggling to continue your life.21st Jan, today is your 28years old birthday. Every year I will send u a greeting message, but today I don't. Coz U still in coma, u won't read my SMS. I knew...
23rd Jan 08, I received a SMS told me that u r leaving. My brain blank again. I can’t accept! I sat on bed half and hours. Don’t know what to do. I started to cry. As what my friend said, u might be suffered while struggling, but u can’t go thru.
24th Jan, I went to your mourning hall. I felt tremble while I saw u slept like a baby in the coffin. I ask myself several times, is that really u? I told myself, must smile for you in this last time but my tears start flowing down.I can’t accept the truth that u r really leaving in my life. Loon, how long we been knew each others? More than 20yrs, right? How can I accept? Just SMS you few days ago before you met with accident, but now...While that DRIVER,who carried u on that night and make you killed in the accident appeared in your mourning hall, I really have an impulsive give him a loudly slap! We hate him, is he make us lost you.
25th Jan, I don't attend your funeral, I don't want see your cremation. I worry I will lose control, just in front you. U will become an ashes in front us, how can we accept? Forgive me, Loon. I really not willing to lost a close friend as u in my life,but...we cant control the fate. The sweet memories among us will always keep in my mind. Reopen the photos, which took together while hang out. Recollect lots of memories among us, no matter happy or sad. Recalled your smiling face, recalled your voice, recalled your funny stories, and recalled some of my secret, what I share with you but u never shares with others as what u promise me.
Tonight, my heart felt painful. I toss n turn my body, suddenly cried. Finally, I lost a closed friend as u in my life...Why???Why make u suffer???
25th Jan 10am, I make a called to her, who did attend your cremation. I asked her to put her phone on air while cremation. I shout "Bye, Loon!"through phone with you. I started to cried again. My heartache, really paint till I cried without control. From this seconds onward, u will definately disappeared from my life. I have no chance to smile with u; I have no chance to joke with u; I have no chance to hang out with u...Sorry, Loon, I can’t face it, really can't. What can I do is only said the last good bye through phone with u! Finally, I lost you in my life, forever...Promise me, u must take good care and be happy in the paradise. We can’t accompany you anymore. But you always keep in our mind till forever...
Special for my lovely friend - Wai Loon.
posted by bibo @ 4:52 AM
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